Today auntie flow showed up....I really believed that this holiday will be our time to fall pregnant. After 4 and a half years of ttc and nothing. Nothing is wrong with me or hubby. Have gotten everything checked. So I want to give up hope but I know this desire for a baby won't dissappear. When I hear of another couple falling pregnant I am not happy for them. I am jealous and wonder why can I not fall so easily pregnant than all the woman around me. I know I am supposed to be happy for them and support them. So now my last resort will be to go and see a homeopath.