Today was my first day home all day by myself with my 1 month old twins, I’ve gotten about 4 hours total of sleep in over 24 hrs. So I was just relaxing on my recliner in the nursery waiting for my husband to get home from work, when he got home, he came in & said his hellos to us 3 & then went straight to the bathroom & was in the for awhile, assuming he’s using the restroom. I go to use the bathroom maybe 10 min after he comes out & it’s very clear that he was not using the restroom (I won’t go into details on how I knew), but he went in there to masturbate literally like 15 min after he came home?! I called him out on it, & he laughed and said he did. I went into the nursery and started crying. Ugh maybe I’m being dramatic bc I’m exhausted but idc..it kind of hurt knowing he had to do that as soon as he got in the door. I’m already not feeling confident due to only being 1 month postpartum & I already feel bad that I haven’t been able fulfill his needs the past several months due to having a rough 3rd trimester & then giving birth vaginally to the twins. 🙁 now I feel even worse about myself.