15 weeks post partum

I suffer from bipolar, anxiety, and OCD. Was diagnosed over 18 years ago. Stopped my meds before I tried to conceive and the whole 40 weeks of pregnancy. I EBF and still can't take any of my meds. No im not gonna stop nursing. I weighed the pros and cons and me and my LO suffer more from not nursing and me on meds. Than nursing without any physc meds. Just can't shake the depression sometimes. I'm way more manic than depressant. Just the depressing times suck when they come. Just wanted to get that off my chest. Here's my angel baby that keeps me going.