So basically I'ma what you call a lazy lover and it not because Im lazy but because of my weight I don't feel like I can do it . So for instance being a big girl I always attract skinny dudes lol . And they be wanting me to get on top of them . And I be feeling like no I might break you smh . Then there was this one guy I did get on top of but because I never really rode I felt like I wasn't doing it right and felt stupid .... What can I do because the dude I'm with now wants me to ride but I keep saying no