When I’m talking to a guy or heard that a guy said something the first thing that pops up is hmmm you are lying but okay

If I have an argument with a friend or even a guy I like ( or something) in my head the friendship is over even though I know it’s something small and I’m hopinggg they actually block me and don’t talk to me which is so ridiculous

I hate explaining things about myself to people because in my head they don’t care so I cringe when I look at my message and it’s a long explanation. Which is probably why I talk so fast

This is easily dismissible but I feel like I’m going to be single forever because I’m never interested in someone for long or even too much

I don’t ‘accept’ certain things and I’m afraid that because I don’t people will mistake self respect for being up tight and I don’t like that word

I compare myself or say ‘ why can’t I be like that’ and I get in this mood where I feel like I need to give instagram space

I always feel I’m not good enough so I don’t like being around people that are essentially better than me or even seem that way because I start overthinking like they probably thought I was ugly or ghetto or mediocre. I definitely don’t know how to change this