I am 34 weeks and 3 days. I have lupus with two anticoagulant factors (high risk for a blood clot in placenta or placenta maturing too quickly and leading to stillborn). Most people with my condition are induced at 36-37 weeks. I am terrified of having a stillborn. This pregnancy has been extremely rough. I have been on a ton of meds and limited mobility since 8 weeks. I have pretty much been isolated from the world. My doctors have decided they would like to push me to 38 weeks and me to have a c/s. This is my first and I really want to try vaginal delivery and they won’t even hear me out. I am so crushed. This whole experience has been a giant disappointment. I honestly don’t know if I will go through it again.

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