December 23rd I found out I was expecting our third baby. Just a couple months before we decided we were good with our two children and if we have a third when we have a third one but if we don't it won't break our heart, then we got this surprise and I started imagining our future with three kids. But January 2nd I started spotting and the next day I started cramping and I knew. January 3rd became the day we closed on our 2nd home but lost our 3rd baby. Now I'm more confused then ever on whether we are done yet. It doesn't help that I'm working on eventually getting my photography license and I really love newborn photography. I have such mixed emotion going through my Instagram feed and seeing pictures of expecting mothers and newborns.