Feeling nervous

My boy friend has a son from previous relationship.

As do I. Beginning of July 2018 we found out we were pregnant

Shocked but very much excited. We told our families and some close friends. End of August we had a miscarriage at 10 weeks, and it was devastating

We were torn apart emotionally our boys were heart broken.

We talked over and over again about trying again.

So I decided not to go on any birth control.. needless to say.

I am 10 weeks today. Have our first ultrasound appointment next week. I deal with anxiety really bad. And just the fact that 10 weeks is when the miscarriage happen. Has me very worried.

My midwife tells me that I have a very strong pregnancy this time.

Just the thoughts I have really get to me.

What If we miscarry again? Will I be able to handle that emotional pain again ? I guess I’m really posting to get some positive comments and other mothers experiences..