It’s so hard seeing everyone with a child but you . Let me give you a little background back in May 2018 I had gastric bypass surgery (best feeling in the world) and after I started losing weight I was going crazy in the bedroom with my boyfriend lol !!!! 😂😂😂😂😂🤷🏽‍♀️ well come September I just started feeling like death smh like horrible. So I went to the ER . Lady says we need to take some urine so I’m like okay that’s fine so time passes by she comes back and says is a chance you could be pregnant so I’m like NOOOOO! So she leaves and in come another lady with a ultrasound machine I’m like excuse me your in the wronnng room 🤬🤬🤬she says your Ms.Williams right I’m like yeahhhh🤷🏽‍♀️! She like CONGRATULATIONs!!!! I faint in the hospital bed y’all 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️ wake up and boom I hear a beautiful heart beat right then I fell in love . I was so happy I cried tears of joy . Fast forward November 6 . I started spotting when I came home from work . Used the bathroom somethings pops like water gushing out 🤦🏽‍♀️ I just cried and cried and cried all the way to the hospital. November 7th was the worst day of my life . My son first and last day on this beautiful earth . He was gone . So beautiful and sweet . I was 5 months when he left me to be in heaven. He was all I ever wanted . Even tho I’m ttc doesn’t mean I’m trying to replace him at all .