I’m just so upset with my body

Just found out I failed my 3 hour, my 2 hour result was not good and failed my fasting by literally one point.

I cried all day because now my doctor won’t even let me try for a VBAC (my first was 9 over 9lbs, was NOT diagnosed with gd). I am really beating myself up because this will be my last baby and I’m hurting knowing I’ll never experience vaginal birth. I’m scared to death of another c section because of how horrible my first one went. Plus more than likely they will be taking her a week or two early so that’s even less time to prepare. I’m also stressed about being home because my bedroom is in the upper part of the house and you can’t excessively use stairs.

I’m really super upset, mad, sad, disappointed.