Hi girls.

Me and my boyfriend have had break from 1 of January after my anxiety attack.. And tomorrow we are gonna meet together and talk.

Earlier have been rough, I have struggle with myself, been unsure about myself and fighting with anxiety. When I grew up I got diagnosed Autime and after that Asperger. Been struggling to fit into people, people understand me, finding friends, been a lot alone and bullied. So when I got older I just got unsure about me and when I found my boyfriend I've been really unsure about myself.

I've have told him "Oh you deserved to be another girl." Or "I am not perfect, I'm disabled person, I don't fit in." And blaming him that he have cheated on me that he havent done. And when he is away I have texted him "oh you are sure with another girl now" Blah blah blah. And ofc we been fighting.. So after my anxiety attack he just had enough!

So on Thursday and Friday me and my dad found out something I didn't do earlier, I am unsure and I been treating my boyfriend bad and now I know the reason and why! So I really hope that I can convince him that I am gonna change and be more positive and happy, like when we dated in the beginning. But I am so nervous about that he is gonna break up.. like he have told me earlier that he loves me and wanted to be with me in the future but, his text show kinda different.. It's maybe because I'm have mini anxiety but, trying my hard not to let it take control over me.

I really REALLY do love my boyfriend! And I will change for him to save our relationship. He is my dream man 💕 and I felt so bad to hurt him that way..

Hope he will forgive me and give me a another chance! 😔💔