helpppp please

ive lived w my bf for month less than a year & im 19 & hes 24. his dad lives here aswell. & i just feel unhappy .... i feel like i have no privacy here & i really feel like a maid here ... throughout the year i feel like it has drained me emotionally & mentally that i almost feel like im watching myself from another view , i dont feel myself at all anymore ... we’ve had about 4 big arguments bc he doesnt like to hear me out & isnt a great communicator at all in my opinion.. basically i just feel like this guy is not my soul mate at all ..... i feel like this isnt what god has in store for me , i dont feel content living here i miss having freedom , im tired of the jealousy & petty comments to me .. i just know that i dont deserve this sometimes , the responses i get , how dumb he makes me feel & idk i just feel for some reason i cannot leave him or here .... i still feel so guilty in my conscious to just “leave what we started” idk why ... i feel like i cant leave or am not brave enough to just pack & say enough is enough .... 😢 help i feel mentally stuck around him .. living my life in fear for some reason .. (hes never hit me)