I’m over it🤦‍♀️

I know that losing your virginity is a big deal and all but seeing all of the guys that my mom has dealt with, and all the guys that my oldest sister has dealt with, and the one guy that I’ve been with (not sexually) I really don’t have a positive opinion about guys at all. Honestly I am about to be 22 years old and I just want to get The whole losing your virginity thing out of the way because obviously your first time is not going to be great, it’s going to be scary, it’s going to be weird, it’s going to be awkward so why not do that with somebody that I’m semi-comfortable with which is my ex boyfriend?🤷‍♀️(even though his the thought repulses me)