I have to test tomorrow and I don’t feel confident

Crazy cuz I felt confident the whole Two Week Wait and then bam I woke ho today and my temp dropped just a little and that was enough for me to be like welp...this is not gonna go my way. The rollercoaster of this time of the month is more than I can bear often times. I hate how I waffle from optimistic to pessimistic to optimistic. At one point this cycle I told myself I could be having twins. Just been such a seesaw. I have to test because my cycles are medicated and my RE makes me. Just wish me some sanity guys. No baby dust. Tried that for 14 months and it doesn’t work.