Is it only a dream?

Annmarie

Was wishing the past few Christmases I will be holding my babies. Turned out after three miscarriages it was still only a dream. Every month seems like a year and every year it seems like forever. Got my periods again and yet I keep hoping it’s only a spotting like every time I do until it turns out to be a normal painful period. Is it just me or does been a mom feel like a dream that never seems to come true?