AM I A PUSHOVER IN OUR RELATIONSHIP?? 😓

My boyfriend & I have been together for 4 months. I’m 20, he’s 23 & this is both our first relationship.

When it comes to my relationship, or any relationship (friend / family) in general I’m pretty much of a push over & I know it but it’s hard to try to get out of it.

I always make sure my boyfriend puts his needs / wants before me (I always do that with people) but I just want to make sure that I’m his 1st priority now ... because I’ve been sitting on the side line for too long & it’s been getting to me lately.

For example, Christmas he made sure he got all his family gifts & still has yet to get mine... I said that’s fine because I understand his money struggle. But last year he got his brothers baby momma a gift & idk I guess I’m a little jealous by that even though it WAS last year.

It’s mainly just the little things like he never wants to take pictures with me yet he takes pictures with his friends & family... & how do I stop being a push over with out sounding / acting selfish?? Please help & Thank you! ❤️