Hey guys! I wanted to share my story with you all. Not for attention but to show you sometimes when you can’t see past another negative test, or can’t get out of bed because life has you down, there is hope. Sometimes you have to leave it up to God and pray.

11 months ago my husband came home from work and told me he got a raise. He then told me we could start trying for a baby. Of course we started right away! Month after month went by and nothing was happening. I would be really late for periods, I’m talking months late. June I had my yearly exam and explained to the OBGYN what was going on. She did a blood test and saw that my progesterone was low and I wasn’t ovulating predictively. We began talking about treatments.

Our dog died in August and I suffered a loss of a friend to drugs in May. (You will see why I put this In here later)

September started my first round of clomid. We were excited and started at 50 mg. September 13 my great aunt passed away due to a fall.

October we bought a house. We went on a Disney Cruise and were walking off the ship when we received a life changing phone call. While we were away my grandma had another stroke. She wasn’t doing well (was getting her nails done and grocery shopping when we left). We fly home rush to the hospital and she’s hardly responding. But my daughter got a little movement out of her and my cold hands made her jump. The doctors did a spinal tap to find out she had meningitis and it went straight to her brain and would

Be the death of her. It’s a one in a million chance. Granny died Nov 13. And my heart couldn’t be more broken. I’ve been a mess since. I still wait for her phone calls and try to call her. She was my best friend as well as my daughters. She was 80 years old. While she was passing I felt at one time she was no longer there and she wanted off life support. I prayed to her and God because I felt like she could hear me. I told her I was sorry that I didn’t tell her I was trying but that we have been and that I will teach the next one everything she taught me. I prayed to gain her patience and her love for God, she has a love for God like no one else and I wanted that.

December came and we doubled my clomid to 100 mg. I had symptoms of ovulation and we had sex only a few times because my husband was sick and the holidays plus my depression. January 1 I finally revived my first peak ovulation smiley!

About two weeks ago my daughter told me “mommy granny sent us a baby it’s in your tummy!”. I cried. I wanted that so bad.

January 12th would of been Granny’s 81st birthday. I woke up in tears. All I could think about was how good a bottle of wine would be that night and thought I should take a test to be safe. It was a positive! I couldn’t believe it!

January 13th we lost another family member. Yes. Another 13th date loss. I can’t believe it. It was my dad’s cousin who was only 63.

Now my daughter says it’s twins 😬🙄 if she’s right she’s picking my numbers for the lotto lol.

Ladies I tell you this with love and pray you find your way to a positive test. I want you to know, that no matter what life throws at you, at the right time a positive will come your way. You may not know when that time is, but your life will line it up for when it’s right for you. Sending my love to those who need it!