Is it weird of me


I really have the urge to check into labor and delivery to get checked for dialation and if my cervix has thinned our.. i have my 36 week doctor appointment tomorrow but she has made it clear she doesn’t do cervix check ups at all because she doesn’t wanna put me in “labor” but i feel like it would be comforting to know where I’m at af 36 weeks 3 days..😔