Where are my cervix!?

So today my dr checked me for dilation..(36w) And didn’t say anything after. I assume that meant I’m not dilated. but I was curious so I decided when I got home to check myself and seriously couldn’t find my cervix. Like they’re WAY up in there. With my last two pregnancies I was able to locate my cervix very easily. I’m just annoyed that I can’t feel my cervix. WHERE HAS IT GONE.

-I wasn’t asking for medical advice lol

It’s my third pregnancy. I’ve checked my own cervix plenty of times after 36 weeks. My hands are clean. There’s nothing wrong with it if you know what you’re looking for. Having sex is basically the same thing or even more harsh. And that’s perfectly safe as well.