My husband rarely initiates but for the past few nights he has. The night before was amazing.

But... Last night I crawled into bed while he was in the shower and my back was KILLING me and I was exhausted. He came in and actually flirted with me which he's usually so insecure about that he doesn't do much. He initiated and I wanted to at least try (We only do it doggy because it works best)

Fast forward and basically right before he was about to finish I collapsed from being in too much pain and starting sobbing. Needless to say he totally freaked and was asking what was wrong and all I could squeak out was "pain" do he panicked more thinking he hurt me vaginally. I finally calmed down to tell him my back hurt but I didn't want to let him down. He was upset (not angry) that i didn't tell him my back hurt and told me I never ever ever need to feel required to have sex with him. he was so sweet and caring. I feel so bad.

I worked in an adult day care and lifted 300 lb people by myself after senior year. Then I started at my current job which is working in an FMD classroom where I lift and push two wheelchairs at a time. In 2017 I had a wreck that left me with whiplash and a compressed disc in my lower lumbar region.

Now my back is rough and I'm only 22. I have to go see my chiropractor today but that'll be like $200...

I'm just so upset for a: not meeting his needseben though he didn't expect me to and b: being in so much pain I don't know how I can work today AND clean the house.