Hey ladies I just felt the need to reach out to someone...anyone. Sorry it’s so long but I need help. I’m 27 weeks, I’m living in a home that belongs to my current child’s father. It’s me, him, and my three kids from a previous relationship. I ended things last month because the trust has been broken numerous times and he didn’t seem to care or try to understand my feelings at all. I started sleeping in another room literally freezing at night (my water bottles would freeze but I had blankets for myself because the electricity wasn’t set up in the room) but I sleep in another room to avoid his sexual advances because he often feels that’s the way to work through our problems instead of actually talking. Lately he’s tried convincing me that he wants to be better. He set up couples counseling and after one session he quits saying “I just don’t want to do it anymore.” So I’ve been letting him know how I feel these past couple of days that I’m at my breaking point mentally because it feels like he just sucked me back in and had me open myself up to a possibility of change, only to begin acting as if he doesn’t really care about me, my kids, or this pregnancy again. He works all day and when he gets home he doesnt bother to speak to me or my kids. I’ve bought everything for the baby and he hasn’t bought ONE SINGLE THING and I don’t even work. When I try to sit with him and talk things out he quickly gets annoyed and hurts my feelings until I run off to the room crying my eyes out. He hates talking to me but then will get on his phone and be the happiest person ever.

I know I’m in a bad situation but I’m depressed because we planned this baby and I feel like I’m doing it all alone. I used to cut a long time ago when I was in an abusive relationship and now tonight for the first time in YEARS I felt I needed to just to be in control of my own pain again. I need help. I wanted to get a dog so that I wouldn’t feel so alone. At first he said yes but when I found a dog I wanted he said no. I want to go visit my parents but he says he will NEVER take me there again. I want to go places but the only place he will take me to is the grocery store to get food because he’s always going out of town for the weekend. I feel trapped, smothered and like I don’t want to have this baby anymore. I love her, I love feeling her kicks but I’m just not finding any joy from my life right now. My kids are amazing and loving but they are gone at school all day and I feel so alone that’s why I wanted a dog. Does anyone have any advice? I figured I’d just get a dog anyway because I just don’t want to go back down that dark road that led to me cutting myself. It’s like everything I want to help me not fall into this depression he takes from me. Please help😢