ok. i have some severe anger issues. i lash out. scream. get mad at nothing. i’m just down right angry. my dad has bipolar disorder. takes medication for it. i try to control myself. sometimes i get so angry i don’t even realize what i’m doing and i like snap out of it and realize i’ve been blowing up my boyfriends phone forever now. and i look psycho. i can tell he’s getting tired of it.

idk who this person is i’ve become... i think it started in the summer. i was suicidal. and depressed. we had four deaths in the family those few months..

now the anger never went away. i don’t have access to anger management or therapy. my mom doesn’t want to deal with the fact that her kid has problems bc she wants me “perfect” . idk what to do. deep breathing and hobbies and thinking before i speak isn’t working. i’ve gotten it a little better but it’s not fully working. barely even working.

any advice ?