I’m a terrible mom.

I’ve been so stressed lately. I lost my job a month ago and everything has just been piling up. I’m overwhelmed and just exhausted. Nights have become hard. My 4 almost 5 year old can sense it. Tonight he was just whiny. He didn’t want to brush his teeth and he didn’t want to go to bed and I just broke. I yelled and said “I just can’t do this anymore, I can’t handle being a mom” I broke his heart. I walked away and just sat down. He came out crying and said “what am I suppose to call you? Can you help me open my vitamins” and he’s crying. I made him set them down and I just hugged him and apologized. I can’t believe I said that because there is no other person I would rather be then his mommy. He is the only reason I hold it all together. He’s the reason I wake up. The reason I breathe. I begged for his forgiveness and he forgave me without hesitation but I can’t get over the fact that I said that. I broke my child’s heart and I can’t forgive myself. I feel like I have let him down.