I forgive you

As dumb as it sounds and as dumb as I know I’ll look for this

I forgive you

Not for you though (at least not 100%)

For myself

Because the energy I put in hating you took away the energy I needed to love myself

The energy I put in hating you beat me inside and out and then broke me even more

The energy I put in hating you made me need you back

I cried and cried

Prayed to god for a reason why

Then began to hate god a little bit for not giving me a response

But then it hit me

If I never forgive you I can’t forgive myself

Forgive myself for loving you

For trusting that you’d be different

For trying to paint over the person you had already revealed to me before shit hit the fan

So yea , I forgive you