Makayla, he’s a good dad.

Just because he’s not always around doesn’t mean he doesn’t love you.

At least he’s not a deadbeat dad.

Makayla you should be grateful.

This is what people tell me. They tell me you love me. They say that you care. I don’t believe any of it. As sad and heartbreaking it is, i think i’d rather have you as a deadbeat dad. Because you may be here in the present, but the dad i grew up with is gone. I don’t like seeing this drunk, immature boy. I don’t like seeing this guy scream at his 9 year old son when he didn’t try hard enough, when he put in all the effort he had. I don’t like being called a whore and a slut. I hate all of it. Honestly, it feels like i don’t even know you anymore. You’re not the person I once loved. So if you were gone, if you really turned out to be a deadbeat dad. I don’t think it would bother me. Simply because, well, you never really there for me in the first place.