He broke his promise

I rather not be called dumb or stupid. I’m going through the process of leaving. I know. For those who think it’s as easy as getting up and leaving, for some it is, not so much for others. Anyway

My boyfriend and I made a promise to stop name calling & hitting.

I wanted 2019 to be our year. I suffer from anxiety and it’s the physical kind (not fun) with this I would as healthily as possible tell him I need space or room to breathe if he was verbally abusing me to the point of me breaking. I really did try to not hit. Most times he wouldn’t stop.. he began hitting me too & as you can imagine, he hits harder. It got worse over time & I have scars on my face because of it.

2019 rolls around & I stop calling him names & work on not hitting him (I don’t) he starts calling me a slut again & it triggers me but I still don’t hit him. I relapse with the name calling after he called me a slut.

Then two nights ago, he did it. He choked me. Over a little lie I caught him in. He stopped almost right away but still did it.

Today he did it again. He grabbed my hair multiple times, punched me in the eye (or bashed my eye in with his head idk), & slapped me a couple of times. I’m thankfully not bruised this time around. Yes I love him & I’m stupid for loving him but I know I need to go. It won’t get better...

I just need support. It’s a hard journey...

Update: idk if this is cus of it but now my nose is bleeding

Edit: I didn’t ask to feel sorry for me. And I also didn’t ask for you to comment. If you’re that miserable, write a blog

Edit: I’ve tried getting his family involved. Even threatened the cops. He still did it. I don’t hit him if that is what you’re currently asking. I don’t. I haven’t since the promise. I’ve been in therapy (as has he)