Anorexic thoughts, but not anorexic

I know I have anorexic thoughts and that I constantly weigh my self everyday multiple times, I almost cry everytime the numbers go up and i hide myself in baggy jumpers and sweaters.

But I'm not anorexic, I am almost overweight, yet I can't stop thinking of food. And not in a good way, I constantly regret when I eat but I snack out of boredom and it's a habit.

I count calories everyday and somedays I eat under 1000 some days I eat nearly 2000.

I'm a cheerleader and I'm in bad shape and it is not helping at all. But everyone at my cheer is stick thin, even my coaches and the 9 year olds and it makes me so self conscious.

I would like to lose weight without turning anorexic and being so obsessive about it.