Help!

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So I have a boyfriend, but I want to be in a girl relationship. I am in this program where kids with mental health struggles meet with a mentor every week and a dinner together every week. Last year I dated this guy with really bad depression and were both in the program again this year. But I think that me being there is triggering him, he always has to leave early and I don't want to push him out of the group. I'm homeschooled due to bullying and no friends. I don't know what to do!! I hate being a teenager. Any advice? If you want to know some more please message me! Thanks for your help!