Bad break up 💔

How do you get over someone you been to get for 11 months? I cry a lot at night bc ik my family won’t hear me I always think about him and rn I’m going trough something and I don’t think I can deal with this too it hurts like hell I have memories photos of us and it kills me to look at them or even delete them I wanna tell him I love him but I can’t 😭