I. Can’t. Climax. ...but only when I’m with my boyfriend.

This is driving me crazy. I can get off fine by myself, but that’s just bc I’m very particular about how I masturbate. I dry hump until I cum, and it’s always been fine.

My bf, though? He likes to get girls off. Like, he can’t get hard until I’ve had an orgasm. Sooooo I usually have to fake it. I’ve come close a couple of times, and it’s felt like I’ve had to pee, which made me hopeful that I might squirt or something but I always chicken out and fake an orgasm before I can find out. Because what if I just pee on him by accident? I feel like that’s a mood-ruiner, yanno?

And no, sorry, before anyone asks I can’t test it out by myself. I can’t get myself off internally. I’ve tried. My fingers aren’t long enough and my hand cramps too easily. And I don’t have any toys either.

I just feel so dishonest pretending to have orgasms when I’m really not. It’s not like I don’t think my boyfriend isn’t good in bed, he’s very good, but I’m scared to give it that extra push and I don’t want to hurt his feelings by telling him I’m not there yet.

Y’all. I need advice.