Please let this be my month please 💔

rayna

5 days till af is due. 20th & 21st I had very light pink when I’d wipe twice in each day and nothing when I’d wipe again. Today when I wiped it was a small spot of brown a couple times when I’d wipe then nothing. Am I out this month and af is on her way or could this still be implantation bleeding? I’m losing hope of ever being able to conceive again 😭 never been so down ☹️ dreading when af comes I know I’m just setting up for a big let down 😭😭😭