I’ve come to the agreement with my fiancé that in three years, we may have at least one more child. I have Irish twins as of right now so I REALLY don’t want anymore kids for a while. I miss pregnancy. I miss watching what I have to eat. I miss being extra careful with what I do. I miss the kicks.

Pregnancy has been hard for me in the terms of mentality. I missed my body. I missed being able to sleep comfortably. But I know one thing...I wanted a big family. I wanted five kids after my first was born and my fiancé was all for it.

My ppd was so bad after my first. All because I wasn’t sleeping. But this time, my fiancé takes night shift. He lets me sleep. His words, “You were pregnant for 18 months, I told you I’d help you.” I don’t feel nearly as unstable, though some days aren’t as good.

I’m secretly glad that all these “lasts”, might not be my last. In three years, my oldest will be four, and my youngest will be three. I want a summer baby, so I’m gonna make sure that happens 😂

What’s your experience with 3 to 4 year olds while pregnant? Do you think we can handle it? We’re hoping for another girl too😂