So on December 10 was the hardest day of my life DCFS took my kids away my story is kind of complicated ... me and the father of my 2 kids really don’t talk or get along but we did have a court order for him to have visits with the kids as long as they were monitored by his mother or wife and he was allowed over nights as long as he stayed at his mom house. They live on the same property . So I would let them take the kids over the weekend most of the time unless I had plans with the kids . In September I get a knock at my door it was child services with there allegations stating that my NOW FIANCÉ is beating me up and I was allowing him to hit my kids and that I would let him hit my kids NOT ONCE has my fiancé even raised there voice at my kids . And I’ve spoke to my kids in private and I’ve always told them that if they ever needed to tell me anything they could . So they stated all there allegations to me and told me they were not concerned and they were just doing a emergency call in . I was like that’s fine you guys are welcome to come to my house when ever you like . Time passes they visited made me take my kids to THE HUB to see if they had any injuries as who ever called said that I would beat my kids up to I did everything they asked me to . So 3months passed and I asked what was going to happen with the case she was like I’m closing it there isn’t enough evidence . The cops have never been called for a domestic dispute or anything to my home ... maybe about 2 weeks go by and I get the call that my kids are being removed because I neglected to take care of them while I fought with my fiancé . And I ask this case has been open for 3months if you guys were truly concerned about my kids and me being beat up why not take them away instantly why make it seem like everything was okay . .. so my kids were placed with MY EX MOTHER ... again they live on the same property .... so they tell me court is in 2 weeks to not worry . I go to court and my lawyer tells me look your case is very messy . Your ex’s wife is stating that she knows that there is domestic violence inside your home and she said she has seen bruises on you . I was so shocked and I wanted to beat her ass at that court right away ! But I stopped my self I started crying and my lawyer was like look don’t let them see you like this is what they want . We need to get your kids back kind you I’m 18 weeks pregnant at that time . I’m a hot mess .. at the time we go in they give me and dad same order monitor visits 2xs a week 2hrs per day . Dad ask for a pSI it’s and order for the kids to be placed with him . So they put a social worker to see if his house and he is suitable to take them . Mind you the time before I had full custody because dad is a drug user . So I’m like okay I guess . Then Jan 3 comes around for that hearing and dads motion is denied because he is still on drugs and house is way to small his wife and him have 3 kids aside from my 2 kids .so the social worker says they should stay at grandmas until they can come up with a plan . So I’m like okay that’s fine . I’m already enrolled in parenting and counseling at this point . They have not asked me to do anything to get my kids back but I did my own foot work . I am now 24 weeks pregnant . And it’s just been getting to me that my kids have stated to me on our visits that they want to come home and that there grandmother let’s them go over to dads house with out any supervision. And it’s just so fustrating because my social worker has told me that there’s nothing she can do . And how sure am I that grandma isn’t there all the time . .. I just needed to vent & I have been blaming my self for being a bad parent or wondering why god is punishing me in such way but my fiancé keeps telling me . That ifs not my fault and the fact that they made up lies to take the kids away from me isn’t my fault . & I want to say it was beloved because when I was with the father of my kids I was going they domestic violence and it took me 2 years to finally report it . .. I do everything I bend myself backwards for my kids I take them to the dr I go to my dr hospital visits for the lupus I do everything for my son . For both of them and for them to just come And snatch them all over lies is such bullshit aghhhh !