5 days PP be like..... 😭 & 😊.. I knew from the gate breastfeeding may be challenging. Although not my first baby it is my last, and i really wanted to do breastfeeding this go around. In the hospital nurses were helping me get my baby to latch (the only issue I had).. But it was still kinda painful but I pushed through. I get home Saturday and I try, I struggle, I bare the pain, I push through. My poor nipples. So bruised. But I push through. My baby is constantly drinking and cluster feeding bc of the poor latch she isnt getting enough milk. I dont make it long. By Sunday night my daughter is drinking expressed milk (and some formula, because she was drinking faster than I could pump) yesterday I was so exhausted and so engorged I had completely given up. I was done. I tried to pump for over 30 minutes... NOTHING! I thought damn really?! Where the hell did it go so fast? I know I haven't dried up already! Today we go to our first newborn appointment and I tell my pediatrician of my struggles and how I had given up and feel like a failure. But because he is a god send and is so good to my family (all of my kids have seen him since birth:11yrs) he reassured me that I can do it and to not give up. He offered me resources in my area, and shared some other breastfeeding experiences with me. We get into the check up and low and behold he finds that my daughter has a tongue tie, hense the poor latch! He scheduled her an appointment with the ENT tmrw to get it snipped and damn near begged me to try breastfeeding again, with some expressing (to ease the stress.) And maybe a little formula at night (bc I told him she acted more satisfied and fuller off the formula rather than the breast milk.) So all the way home I have mixed emotions, but deep down I'm so thrilled bc I hope this is the answer. I know how rewarding and bonding breastfeeding can and should be and I want that experience SOOO BAD!!! So I get home, we get settled, I unpack that breast pump and get to work!!!! 2 hours later.....

24 OUNCES!!!!! Im so ecstatic. I know I can do this, and I'm so ashamed of even thinking of giving up. Even if we can't breastfeed, I still want her to have breast milk for at least the first 6 months. I'm so thankful for my pediatrician. ☺