Hey y’all,

So this happened July of last year and I can’t stop thinking about it. I met a guy over a dating app and I was head over heels for him. I hadn’t dated anyone since 5 years ago (I got dumped in front of my house) and was excited to finally meet someone new. Our first “date” was at his place to cook dinner together. He really wanted to get into my pants that night and I really didn’t want to do anything sexually. After we ate dinner (wasn’t that good), he was still persistent on having sex with me and I was still saying no. It got so annoying to the point where I gave up in the end. I had no car to leave his place at the time and felt stuck at his place. After that day, I felt different about him, like I felt like things would not go as I wanted. He never really took me out on dates and just wanted me over all the time for sex. One day he took me on a “date” which basically consisted of him walking me around his neighborhood. Towards the end he took me to lunch/dinner at a restaurant and afterwards called it a day by taking me back to his place. I wanted to shower after that long exhausting walk and he wanted...you got it...sex. He got his way. I felt like a fool time after time, not knowing what to do or say. I could not muster up the courage to say stop or enough. It was difficult to see him cause I always worked late nights. Maybe that’s the reason he did what he did next. A few days before a summer holiday, he had to go work somewhere away from the city. I texted him all weekend letting him know I missed him and whatnot. I knew something was wrong when he stopped answering the last day of being out of the city. I thought maybe he was tired and had gone to bed. The next day he texted me saying that he slept with a woman from a bar and that he was “sorry” about blaming the alcohol. I asked him to never contact me again and that things were over. A few days later I reached out asking him why he had done it and he still blamed the alcohol. Smh.