I dont want to be alone anymore

I'm sorry about the sad post. I just dont know what to do anymore. Since my son was born I feel like I've lost my family. His dad left when I got pregnant and I refused to get an abortion. Over time I've drifted away from the friends I had before my son. I think it's mostly because we are in such difficult situations and stages in our lives. Many of them dont want children or are just not ready to have them and I totally understand that. I also understand that its really hard to plan to see them around the baby's schedule. I still love the friends I used to see and would do anything for them if they needed. I dont think anyone is to blame for the drifting apart. One friend in particular lost a pregnancy and it was too difficult for her to be around me and my child so she lashed out at me in a really bizarre way and explained herself later. I wish her the best but I'm unable to trust her around me and my child anymore.

My family is very religious and because I had a baby outside of marriage I'm seen as a sinner. They tell me that the only thing worse than what I've done is murder. Its obviously not easy to be around them and its obvious that they dont actually want me around but they tolerate me because they want to see my baby. It's fine but it doesnt help the loneliness.

Has anyone else felt this way? How did you deal with it?

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Ka

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Your “family” is fucked up. You had a baby instead of an abortion, and they think you did an “almost murder” by having it? What kind of fucked up “pro-life” bullshit is that?Move out. Maybe not today if you can’t afford it. But you need to start making plans to rescue yourself or your child will be subjected to the same emotional abuse they’re putting you through. You’ll need to find a job. Do you have a degree or any training? Is there a local agency that can help you walk though the steps? Perhaps a local domestic violence organization that helps women to make plans to leave abusive situations?Good luck mama. You sound really wonderful, and I’m sure you’ll be able to meet some really good people to replace those toxic fuckers that call themselves your “family.”

Ka

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I’m rereading your post and I’m not actually sure you are living with them. If you aren’t, that’s excellent! Just stop talking to them. Join a single moms support group. If your baby is in day care maybe try to meet some of the other parents. Join a different church than your family, and ask the priest/rabbi/imam person to introduce you to some nice people.

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Kinda sorta been there, I drifted from all my friends when I was married and now I'm divorced and only have a few close friends, everybody else is an aquaintance. Thru work n stuff u can find friends. I'm here if u ever need to talk. What area do u live?