I’ve been dealing with this pretty much since 2012 when I moved away from home to be with my now husband. I have a hard time getting motivated to do anything, and my house is constantly in shambles. There’s food and dirty dishes everywhere, and the dust just keeps gathering. When I get a day off work, I am excited because I tell myself I’m going to get up and get things in order, but I rarely do. Most of the time I get overwhelmed and I just lay down and play with my phone, and then I cry and feel sorry for myself. My hair is disgusting and matted most of the time and I feel incredibly ugly. I haven’t worn any makeup in a couple of years. I’ve probably gained 70 ish pounds in the last 7 years and my health is suffering. i constantly feel the need to improve my surroundings so I buy stuff to make me happy, and it never ends up being used or it’s laying around my home not put away. I seriously feel like everybody in my life hates me, and even though my husband tells me he loves me endlessly, I can’t fathom why he would, and I truly believe he deserves better. I’m incredibly emotional about everything. I used to believe I was just lazy, but I truly feel overwhelmed with life and I don’t know what’s going on.