I hate my body and I’m insecure because of my boyfriend

Kassandre

Okay ladies, I know this may not be a big deal to some of you but it is for me. I want opinions on what you would do, how you would handle it, etc. So the other night I found porn on my bf’s computer. Now I don’t really mind it, we’ve watched it together. It’s just that I didn’t know about all these times. It was always wayyy after he dropped me at home and knew I was asleep. What bothers me most is he’s always said he liked petite blondes (pic attached of me) and I’m neither of those. I’m so stressed because all of the porn he looked at was small blondes. I’m now starting a diet and working out so I can be as small as possible and planning on bleaching/dying my hair. We’ve been together a year and this all just came to light. What would you do?