I feel really bummed.. a whole week plus more of stress. Last Monday the 14th went to the ER for abdominal pains... preeclampsia it was.. I remained there all the way to Friday, Jan 18th.. it was early morning woke up with a fever and shortness of breath...with super high blood pressure “we are going to deliver your baby today” mind you my DR was going to wait for 32 weeks or even 34... I was 30 weeks that day. My mind went crazy especially with all the meds I’ve have taken. It was really intense. I couldn’t keep still & the oxygen mask didn’t work for me so i would move it from my face.. finally they moved me to the delivery room, a huge white room with bright lights.. my hubby couldn’t even be in there and I was just scared out of my mind... I kept moving and complaining I couldn’t breathe.. last thing I remember they wrote the time on the white board that said 7:50am something (idk) and I’m out.. I had a c section... they put me to sleep... slowly woke up around 6pm that day super out of it with tubes in me... I’m in icu ... crazy right ? They took everything off of me & im more awake.. my baby Logan was born at 8:12am weighing at 2lbs 8 oz.. I only saw pics... my hubby missed the birth and I missed it.. so sad we didn’t get to experience it but I know it was necessary. My baby Logan is in NICU and is doing really good. I left icu the next day and returned to the women’s hospital and remained there for another 3 days. I miss being pregnant!!! I hardly had any bad symptoms just swelling and heartburn.. I’m home recovering thank gosh but I miss my baby.. I would go visit him when I was at the hospital and I’m taking it hard. I can’t wait for him to come home to us & I know he is in good hands. I started pumping so I can deliver his little milky. I’m stressing cause I miss him and I want to go back to work so i can save those days when my baby Logan is actually home. Blood pressure is still high .. throughout my life and pregnancy it was always normal. Preeclampsia sucks!!!! My babyshower is still happening this weekend and I just feel like an emotional wreck.. doing this shower for Logan.. it’s his little party 💙🐘