Okay so I am a caregiver currently. I have a man, who lives in my home, every other week, for a week. So I have him in my home, 2 weeks out of a month.

I make GREAT money doing this. About 55,000 a year. I will say, that I am NO HAPPIER making now than I was when I was broke. With this job, comes a lot of stress, anxiety, and I am probably currently the most unhappy I’ve been in my adult life. My anxiety has never been so high.

This is a high needs person, who can Also become very aggressive at times. Biting, chasing, throwing, hitting, all of it. There are many sleepless nights where he will wander around and I don’t get to sleep.

I love this individual with all of my heart, despite all of that. His team can be very overbearing, and it can be hard to find my place among them. Every text in the group chat that I get, sends my stomach into my chest.

In October, I will have been doing this for two years. I used to be his staff before then, and I just cared for him, in somebody else’s home.

SO.....We are currently TTC. We just finished our first cycle of femara, and I’m like 4 dpo right now.

I am SERIOUSLY considering, giving up my salary, so that I can raise a baby, and not have to worry. I am already a high anxiety person, add a baby, I’ll be a mess if I am still caring for this individual in my home 24:7 every other week.

Now here comes my question- Is money like that, worth the misery? Am I wrong for considering taking a huge pay cut, while raising a baby?

Keep in mind, he is not in my home, every other week, for a week. I get to be home all of the time with my babies. He is great 75% of the time, and isn’t always aggressive. Its a great job, and I really don’t want to regret this decision, and need to hear from outside perspectives.

I just don’t think that I can be his full time caregiver anymore, while taking care of my children. Am I crazy for considering giving up this money for motherhood?