Sooooo I’ve posted previously on here about my anxiety. It’s gotten worse over the years. I’ve quit jobs because of it and just recently like a couple of days ago my doctor prescribed me some antidepressants/anti anxiety meds and to see how they work. But this post is about the events taken place prior to the medicine. It’s been two weeks since I’ve been to work and my job is so patient with me (county court house) my anxiety is peaked and i keep calling in because I’m afraid of what will happen when i go back in after missing work the previous day and I’m only making it worse for myself i know. I even got dressed and was half way at work before i turned around and came home. I’m been lying to my boss on the reason I’m calling off and to my mom (even though i live on my own with my fiancé, she likes to make sure I’m doing what i need to) I’m so disappointed in myself and i know everyone else is to. I can’t lose this job, it’s getting me one step closer to my career. I just stress so much there to the point to where I’m physically getting sick and going to urgent cares because of it. Idk what to do. At this point I’m just accepting that i night get fired. I’m a hot mess and i feel so alone and lost right now what should i do.