A little back story...i am 22 years old and i am married to my husband of 5 years and he is 36 years old. We met when i was 17 and started dating when i was 18. Yes, this is a big age gape so please no rude comments about the age difference. We have been married for 3 years and in the duration of us being married i have felt stuck. I have my younger friends always asking me to go out and have a girls night. Well back in September i left my husband because i felt he was controlling me because anytime i asked if i could go out he told me no. When i left he told me if i took our son (he is a toddler) then my husband would commit suicide because he was "losing his family" Well for 4 days i didnt see my son and anytime i text him he would not answer. Now when we got married i didnt have a job. I was still in high school and i got pregnant the month after i graduated. Well he supports everything. He pays the bills, he works, he makes all the money and i stay home with out son. So when i left in September i had no money, no phone (used a tablet to text on), no gas in my car and the only reason i had my car was because i had to leave the car seat. I was staying with a friend the duration of the 4 days. Well i came back to my husband on the 5th day. We had talked and he promised me that if i came back i could get a job and we would look into day cares. Well a week into me being back he tells me "I want to take care of you. So no getting a job" Well i have 3 girlfriends left from my group of friends i had before i left. 2 of them have been asking me to go out and get our nails done and get starbucks and go have a few drinks. I am too scared to ask him because i know he will tell me no. He tells me no on getting my nails and hair done and i have to ask him if i could buy things i want. I have my priorities straight. I take care of my house and son while my husband works. When he comes home i still have to do everything while he plays video games until 10 at night. So i feel like after our son is asleep i can go and have a girls night for a few hours. No drinking because i have to drive home and i am reponsible. I just feel stuck. I feel i cant do anything without having to ask for permission. I just wanted to vent and i need some good words. I love my husband with all my heart and i love our little family. I just wish he would understand. I have been a stay at home mom with no breaks for almost 2 years. My son will be 2 this April. I just wish he understood.