He has been abusive for 4 years ... i fell into depression and lost myself because of him, i stood by him (he’s a narcissist so before i even knew what that was, learned about gaslighting, and everything else, i thought that me sticking it out meant i was strong and holding our family together) he has abandoned and threatened to abandon me and my child numerous times and over these years I’ve grown colder and colder. Now, i feel no love for him, but since i had to stop working to be home, lost my car, and don’t have family to go to, i have to put on an act to “keep the peace”.. NEVER in my life have i been one to hold my tongue if I’m done wrong.. this is the hardest thing ever.. he just told me today that HE is out of love with ME!! I feel enraged and hurt and so stupid for constantly saying what i deserve but i can’t even leave yet,. I have to find employment and a fucking car.. i can’t support my daughter 😔 and on top of that her biological dad is out to get me so if he found out about my marriage failing, and what goes on, he could get custody.. my daughter is the reason why i will act until i can get out... if anyone had advice about staying and keeping the peace while executing their escape plan please let me know.

Thank you ✌🏽