I have 3 friends that are having babies around the same time...don't get me wrong....I'm so happy for all of them but, to know how easy it is for them? That makes me a bit jealous. I'm in my feelings today BIG TIME. Literally one just got married and is 2 months....another just didn't plan it and "surprise" here she comes...n the other just literally says "well I'm planning on getting pregnant this month" and BAM! Must be nice. I have come to hate my body as of late and I'm not this person! I hate being jealous and I hate this feeling of defeat, if you will...I have a 5 year old so I'm not angry I know my body can do it! It's just the fact that i have to go through all these hurdles to get there...I guess I'm just asking for prayer...I think I'm becoming deeply depressed and seeing that my only baby isn't actually a baby anymore and wanting to be so independent is making it worse...Lord help me 😢😢😢