I was supposed to go back to work last week but I just can’t do it. My husband works offshore so he’s gone for weeks at a time. I have a full time job at a school where I’ve worked for 15 years. I’m currently taking an extended leave of absence. I love my job and have close connections with the people there but I just can’t imagine leaving my daughter with anyone else. Financially we could make it but won’t be as comfortable as we have been. The money I make just doesn’t seem important enough to leave her. I’m trying to convince my husband to let me stay home and raise her for a few years but he’s reluctant. She is my first, and because of my age, possibly my only. I prayed and waited so long for her. I just can’t bear to miss out on all those smiles. I know many of you feel the same way. I just wanted to share my thoughts and struggles with others who feel the same.