Okay, so it’s currently 6am. Tmi im puking my brains out lol. And I’m bored.

Last night I went out and got drunk for the first time in almost 2 years. Man it felt great, this morning not so much lol! One of the girls that was with us. Had her almost 2 year old with her. She wasn’t drinking. But enjoying her time with us. And we were all enjoying time with her daughter. This little girl melted my heart all night ! It made me realize how bad I wanna be a mom. She danced all night! Lol ( we were not at a bar, we were at a Mexican restaurant and sat at a table) the way this little girl looked at me with her big beautiful deep blue eyes. I picked her up and she immediately hugged me both arms around my neck. Everyone there was telling me I should be having a baby by now. (I’m 23) and of course I always say I know ! I want to! But they don’t know that I have been having issues getting pregnant. Last night was the first time I wasn’t sad about seeing another baby. Wasn’t sad about not being pregnant. But happy for her! I wasn’t sad about being on my period for the 3rd week. I was just simply happy last night holding this sweet little girl and dancing with her. And before you all judge. I was not drunk while holding her. Or dancing with her. And her mom went home at a decent time to put her to bed. She just simply wanted to come out to hang out with her friends at a restaurant and eat food, and the little girl loved the music!