Boyfriend thinks depression is mind over matter

Jessica

Lately with the pregnancy hormones I have become annoyingly clingy and I’ve gotten really depressed. Im on anti depressants now but when I’m ignored I get thrown into an anxiety attack and I text him a lot and I know it’s annoying. He told me nobody wants to be around the crazy girl that’s always sad and that it’s my fault because it’s just the way I think. I love this man to no extent but I’m tired of him saying my bipolar and the depression that accompanies it is personal choice. I hate being like this and it’s caused a lot of pain for me. How do I explain it’s not something I can just control? I’m trying with being on medication and trying to reach out.