For that couple of days I been scared about everything I do. I had McDonald’s and Chinese food in 1 day, still had the cucumber and carrots I love!!! I recently found out I had mold growing in the bathroom and I’m too scared to go in the bathroom. I waiting for my boyfriend to clean it 😑 for whatever reason every car I ride in there’s always an issue with the gas smell. I been drinking my water and everything. I feel like I’m thinking too hard, like I just want to stay in my room where I feel safe I still take my prenatal and have water. I do eat even though it’s not “healthy” I still eat everyday. I have like cheese and noodles, cheese and crackers, if I go out for food I try not to get too much fried food. Like, mash potatoes or red beans from Popeyes. I still feel like I’m thinking to hard. I do eat healthy food, I’m just worried 😭😭😭 I don’t feel like the best mom right now to my baby. I also been depressed and i don’t want my baby to feel sad. If anything was to happen to my baby I would feel guilty. 😢 the mold is what’s really making me scared because I have been taking showers and stuff,but I didn’t know what it was. Right now I’m just praying everything is alright at our 20 week appointment in 2 weeks. I’m so impatient with not knowing the health of my baby.