We have been trying for 10 months. Every month AF shows up uninvited and I cry for the child I so desperately want. This month, I am now 3 days late, with mild cramping, breast tenderness and frequent urination. I am trying to be pessimistic, thinking that AF is just late. If I take that view, I won’t be crushed if AF shows up and pleasantly surprised. Watching 2 of my best friends become pregnant in the time we have been trying has been bitter sweet. On the bright side, if AF shows up this month, I have a doctor’s appointment to talk about infertility and my options in February. I just needed to get this off my chest.