I’ve thought about it and thought about it. I wrote it. Rewrote it over and over. I finally finished the letter of apology to my ex. I know some people don’t agree with this but sometimes you have to just jump and say “I tried everything I could to heal” and let the rest go into the universe.

Here’s what I wrote:

Hi (insert name)

I never thought I would ever write this letter. Let me first say that there is absolutely no obligation for a response. I know it’s been a very long time... and I know that this is completely out of left field....

But you were always very kind to me and as a Christian I want to make things right with my past. So I respect whatever you do.

I wanted to wish you well and I hope life has been the kindest of kind to you. After all this time you deserve an apology. I’m sorry for any past events that you had to experience because of things going on in my life way back when we knew each other. I was young and had a troubled home life. I had a unhealthy relationship with my mom and the man in her life (with God’s good grace I hope to one day work through it). There were things going on that I didn’t talk about and I took it out on people around me. I said things to people that were hurtful. I acted in ways that were harsh and not characteristics of me. Through prayer and accepting God into my life I now know it wasn’t right. I hope you can forgive me. If you not, I understand and respect it.

For myself there was a time that I felt hurt by past actions but I’ve come to peace with it. I forgive you too and I truly don’t mean any type of disrespect by this letter. If anything the upmost respect is my intention. I hope you can understand that God put this on my heart and I needed to listen to what He was telling me.

Thank you for reading this. May God bless you and yours with all the wonder things that He has to offer you. Psalm 20:4

Sincerely,

Sara